A Classroom Experiment: Manifesting My Desires in Real-Time – The Beginning of My Manifestation Journey
Years ago, and I mean years! Well before manifesting hit the mainstream and was plastered all over our social media. I took a course in college. This course was centered on student success. The professor at the time chose to focus the class on ways that changing your mindset could help you manifest! This was the beginning for me!
I loved the course. I attended all the classes. The idea that our minds could potentially shape our outcomes fascinated me. We watched the “Secret Law of Attraction” movie in class, and again, I was in awe but also a bit skeptical. However, I decided to put what I was learning in class into practice in my everyday life, turning it into my own little experiment.
Ironically, my first attempt at consciously manifesting something happened in that same class. The professor decided to host a giveaway where she would give away 3 sets of the book and a copy of the movie. I really wanted both. So I kept thinking to myself how happy it would make me to hear my name called out. I put my mindset as if I already had it. It was mine, I owned it. I pictured myself watching the movie at home and reading the book. So, on the day the giveaway was to happen, I already knew that one of those sets belonged to me.
Okay, so now, picture this. I am in class nerding out because I am sure my name will be called out. She calls the first name, and it’s not me. She calls the second name, and it’s also not me, she calls the third name, and guess what? Yeah, no, it wasn’t me either. At this point, I have a choice: do I feel bummed out, let the negative thoughts seep in because I didn’t win and my experiment went to shit, or continue to tell myself I won and it’s mine? She calls the third name again, no answer. She tries for a third time, but still no response, so she returns to draw a fourth name, and… I still have the book and movie to this day! By keeping my mindset focused on the fact that it was mine regardless of what name was called, it just was!
I tried this in another class as well. At the time, funnily enough I thought. I wanted to be a teacher. Not that there’s anything wrong with being a teacher. I love kids, and some of the closest people to me are teachers. And have the utmost respect for them, and they deserve more for what they do. I just know now I wouldn’t love being a teacher.
Anyway, back on topic, on this day there is a big exam I did not study for. Now, here is something you don’t know about me. I test horribly, whether I know the material or not. Anyway, I started to focus my energy and mindset on how easy the test was and how I felt seeing my paper with an “A” on it. All of a sudden, the teacher announces something she has never done… The test is was open book!
Putting the Law of Attraction into Action: Manifesting My Dream
As you can imagine, I also applied this new mindset to my personal life. I got to “work.” I created a vision board and hung it above my computer at home. I printed out affirmations and taped those around my vision board. My wall was littered in the best way possible with all these positive thoughts. I designed it in colors that made me think of happiness, love, and abundance.
People have different interpretations of wealth and abundance. While financial wealth and abundance are undoubtedly desirable, they represent only a fraction of the overall picture. You can manifest wealth and abundance in the form of good health, loving relationships, strong friendships, and personal freedom!
The power of positive thinking changed my outlook in so many ways. I remember sitting at my desk, looking at my vision board and my affirmations, and thinking that we needed a new car. At the time, the Dodge Magnums were very popular, and I wanted one! So, I looked online for the exact one I wanted. It was a light blue, and I loved it! I printed a picture and placed on my wall of dreams.
Even when manifesting something, there’s still an element of personal action. I believed the car was mine but didn’t expect it to magically appear in my driveway. So I looked for that specific car until I found it, and we made an appointment to see it.
Here is a little back story. At that point in my life, we were not broke and starving but were not rolling in money either. And our credit was crap. My ex-husband and I were young and really stupid with our finances. We had no way of affording this car or the credit score needed for it. They were asking for $2500 down, we had $800, they wanted good credit, we had shit credit, we went anyway. Two hours later, we drove out of the lot with our brand-new car. The salesman who helped us was the owner. He took a liking to us, let us give him the $800 as a down payment, and gave us special financing with a lower monthly payment to boot!
I started to manifest a lot of things, and the positive outcomes kept happening time and time again.
Life Changes: Navigating the Ups and Downs of Self-Discovery
Here is the thing about the law of attraction: it can attract all the good things, but your mindset can also attract the not-so-good things. Years later, I found myself going back and forth between trying to keep a positive mindset but also being plagued with a lot of negativity. The mind is a powerful tool.
While I was still manifesting “things,” my personal life and marriage were a hot mess. I was in a dark place. There were trust issues I couldn’t get past anymore, and the more I thought of the negative, the deeper I got into the shit show that was my life. The central limiting beliefs at that time for me were that I was not enough I was doubting all my decisions and my course in life till this point.
On the outside, though, everything was peachy. It was all rainbows and butterflies. I had gotten really good at suppressing my feelings because I didn’t want anyone to know I was drowning in my negativity or that my personal life was chaotic.
When you are in a negative headspace, you not only attract shitty situations, you also attract shitty people. You just do not know it at the time. The spiral lasted a while. I was going out more often than I should and just living the life I missed out on in my 20s because I was married with a baby, so now in my early 30s, I was making up for lost time. I’m telling you it/i was a shit show.
I had a new group of “friends.” They were actually just acquaintances that turned out to be crappy humans. Not to me so much but even to each other. The kind of women who preach ” women empowerment” or “I love women who support women,” but they are literally just waiting for that woman they “love” to turn their back so the crap-talking can commence. I am sure a lot of knives are still stuck in their backs to this day.
One thing about me is I will ghost a person or situation that doesn’t vibe with me in a heartbeat without ever looking back once. There is a saying in Spanish,” Para atrás ni para coger impulso.” in English, it means, “Don’t go back even to gain momentum.” eh it doesn’t have the same ring to it as it does in Spanish, but you get the idea. And when I saw the vibe, I did just that… I might have stirred a little shit up before my exit, it was not intentional, but it was honest, and that caused a whole social media removal from the few I still semi-talked to accounts, oddly enough though they still followed me, the block button is the gift that keeps on giving.
A friend later asked if I was going to reach out and see why they removed me. Truth is, I was out of that group long before any of that went down. And I am a firm believer in the following: if the trash takes itself out, why would I be trying to drag it back into my house? There were no hard feelings on my part. I just didn’t need that as part of my life. It is okay to cut ties with situations and relationships that are toxic and I did just that.
I still had my solid day ones, they were the ones who actually helped me get over one of the hardest times in my life. When my mental health really was on the brink, my life decisions and course became too much for me to work through alone and a lot of friend therapy was needed.
They are the ones that stayed on the phone with me for hours. The ones who watched me cry in silence because they knew words were not what I needed, that just being there for me was enough. The kind of women who truly believe in supporting other women in the best ways possible, without any jealousy or ulterior motives, women who exude positive energy, the kind of women I felt aligned with.
Life’s Unexpected Turns: A Journey of Self-Love, Forgiveness, and New Beginnings
I realized that my marriage was no longer working, or rather, I no longer felt like putting myself through another. “I am not enough” spiral. My ex was not a bad person, and for many years, we had a great relationship, but it was the moments in between the ones where the doubt crept in, and the trust was questioned that became too much for me. It wasn’t just him; I had changed in my spiral; I was a different person. The truth was we had also outgrown the relationship. We were on different paths and no longer aligned.
I have always said this and continue to feel the same. I will always care for him and wish him nothing but the best. We have an amazing son who is equal parts of both of us and we had many happy moments. We were just not the one for each other anymore, and that was okay. Was it easy? No, I struggled with a lot of guilt. Guilt for being the one to break up the marriage and guilt for what I felt I was doing to my son. And having gone through my parent’s divorce, I continue to struggle with intense feelings of true mom guilt (that is a whole story for another day).
Something good did come out of those dark times. I learned a lot from the mistakes I myself made about the person I wanted to be and what I wanted for my life. While the old me was dead, the new me was the old old me but much improved. If you have ever gone to what felt like a rebirth, you will understand that sentence. It’s when the person you lost through the years reemerges with a lot more wisdom and knowledge through life’s lessons. I realized we can all make mistakes, but those mistakes do not define us. We can always choose to learn from them and move on.
And oddly enough, through those crappy acquaintances and in that dark time. I gained a good friend who was also struggling with his own personal issues (also a story for another day). As we navigated this new path, we shared stories and supported each other at a time when we needed it the most. I now proudly call him my bestest friend and… hubbie!
I know I have told you a little bit about our story here and there, and if you haven’t read it yet and this is the first of my posts you read, you can go HERE and check out my other post and get a little caught up.
Stay tuned for Part Two: Embracing Change, Navigating Negativity, and Manifestation Mastery
Do people do part twos to blog posts? There is so much more to this story, but this is all I have time for today. So, if it’s not normal practice, I am about to start something new. I’ve unloaded a lot for one post.
In part two, I’ll talk about the changes my new life brought, more negativity, and the amazing life-changing course with the most wonderful manifestation coach, that put my mindset and manifestation practice on another level. Where I was able to manifest my dream job, the most beautiful wedding, paid-for vacations. All because I believed in a higher power and that hard work is not exactly necessary when achieving positive things in the manifestation process. The good news is, you just have to switch your mindset, get rid of those limiting beliefs, and put yourself in the mindset of growth and abundance.
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